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nature. The law of evolution is expressing itself through you.
Now I must tell you why you are going through all this difficulty and
confusion, why you have been made to forget your own past.
When your natural father and Patricia's parents were killed by the
Inquisition, we hid you both. We did it by hypnotizing you and concealing you
under false identities. Even under torture you would not reveal the truth
about yourselves.
I am so sorry we made you endure this, and in our ignorance caused the
accident in June at Holy Spirit.
All I can do is plead an excess of protective zeal.
You two are so precious! When I think that we nearly destroyed you by our very
effort to protect you I
almost go mad!
But we were not wrong to take the steps we did. The Inquisitors are master
saboteurs. Their murders usually seem like accidents. They are so stealthy
I think that they could kidnap an unborn child from its mother's
womb. I myself trust nobody. When the cricket stops at moonset, I suspect the
sneaking approach of the Inquisitor with his tinder ready to set a fire in my
bed. And when the darkness sighs, I listen for the
Inquisitor's voice, murmuring word of our defeat.
I sit here by the hour waiting and listening and worrying.
How can I help you through your rediscovery of yourself? Advice seems hollow,
love futile. All I can tell you is that the earth's will is toward evolution.
It is your privilege to enact it.
Accept this fundamental reality and all your confusion will
evaporate. You will reacquire the moral precision that has always
supported you. You will know the rightness of our cause.
It is the middle of the night, warm and still. I am hunched in a pool of
light at my desk in the upstairs sitting room. I can hear Mike
snoring across the hall. And at the far end, in your room, you
have just sighed. I will go and kiss you, my dearest son.
Five minutes have passed. I am back from your bedside. You moaned when my lips
touched your cheek.
Your sleep is troubled again tonight, darling. I wish that I were
a demon, and could bless you with a demon's insight.
Franklin says the life of the Church has always been this hard, but I don't
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agree. It was bad during the
Albigensian Crusade and worse during the Spanish Inquisition, but at
least then the Catholic cards were placed on the table. Now the
Inquisition is secret, and therefore more dangerous than ever.
My darling, may you be granted full measure of courage. May your burdens be
borne with bravery.
A mother's hope is with you.
Mary Titus
Chapter Nine
PATRICIA ATTRIBUTED TO the trauma of her assault her feeling that a great
unseen force was slowly capturing her. Since the attack she was always under
threat in her dreams, always being pursued by some relentless thing she could
never quite see.
During the day she tried to avoid being touched. Anybody who came into contact
with her might turn out to be one of the dream things. They might
reappear at night, their faces stretched thin, the bones exaggerated
to bestial size. In one recent dream all her friends had clawed up out of the
street beneath her feet and grabbed her legs.
Dreams that bad can drive people mad. They can even kill. Just to survive,
Patricia had been forced to make nightmare management her new specialty.
Only Jonathan knew how to comfort her. She let him sit close, and
occasionally she screwed up the courage to clasp his hand. "At first you
wouldn't let go," he had told her. From those hours she remembered only the
sense of dissolv-ing, as if her whole self were leaking out through her
wounded sex. To prevent it she had felt a desperate, over-whelming need to
hold onto him.
She was grateful when she felt the sun touch her face. She had slept with the
window open and now she took breath after breath of the summer morning. There
was again today no feeling of fullness down below.
The dull, unceasing pain had actually diminished to little more than a
sensation of tightness.
Despite Mike's begging that she move, she had returned to this apartment. It [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]